Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Plain Discouraged

I feel discouraged. Last night, after turning in a good performance I could feel my sugar was high. I checked it and it was 220 something. I took 4 units on an empty stomach and went to bed. I awoke about 1:30 in a sweat and struggled up the stairs and ate 3 apples (small ones from the neighbors' lawns - the good kind). Had I been with it, I would have stopped there and gone back to bed, but I ended up eating so much more, I took another 5 units and never did go back to bed - until after the family got up. I was just tired of this disease and when you have all three of the following, you wonder: Good performance, high sugar, still hungry.

For the past 2 summers and winters, I have been nearly insulin independent in the Summer and totally dependent in the Winter. Could I be going back into Winter the same this year? It has seemed to be dependent on the season alone, without the poor performance people tend to turn in due to the holidays and all the treats and splurging and stuff. It may well be simply that the appetite is bigger when it's cooler and my body has healed to the point that it is insulin independent in the hot months but not to the point where it is in the cool ones.

I have had mixed results this past month. I cannot tell whether I'm actually regressing, just going like normal into the cool months or just been under more stress or something .

Don't know what to do but keep on. I guess the silver lining here is I don't have any decisions to make; there's only one way and that is to keep doing one's best.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Fasting in the Evenings Is Key

On my bad days, I eat late and then stay up late getting back to stable. Sometimes when extenuating circumstances make me later than 6:00 p.m. for supper, or miss supper altogether, I just fast all evening and night. However, more often, I have said I'm hungry darn it and I have eaten and broken the 6:00 p.m. rule.

On good days, I have most often seemed to naturally want my last meal of the day at 4:00-5:00 p.m. Some days I have even messed that up by eating another meal later purely out of incredulity, not hunger.

And of course, such a good day begats the beginning of another good day because my sugar is so stable all night from not eating anywhere near close to bedtime. And it also seems that my body handles meals (provides insulin) far better if it has had a good 12-14 hours fast every night, beginning well before bedtime.

Therefore, I am going to make a big deal out of it. I said before that I would follow the 6:00 p.m. rule absolutely, but I still made exceptions, just out of a "what the heck" attitude. But from now on, I am going to always follow this, even if I am really hungry and I end up having to totally skip supper. Even if I end up having one or two meals in a day only. I am going to be fasting in the evening. Going to get my nourishment mainly at breakfast and lunch (or a late lunch and no supper) so that it won't matter much if supper is skipped. In fact, a lot of days go that way quite natural and comfortably: I eat breakfast and then get around to lunch about 4:00 p.m., and feel great all day and all evening, not having supper.

I really think this will be key, based on my observations and feelings, plus the fact that the 8:00 p.m. rule (which started this whole concept) was personal revelation from God as being key.

Thursday, September 3, 2009


268 tonight. Six units. Perfect supper but no exercise. Not yet caught up on my sleep. Despite these factors, it still indicates I am much more diabetic now than in the last several months. I have no idea whether it is the sleep factor, or whether it is the month or two without supplements catching up with me - I just don't know. But it is interesting.

I ordered a Vitality 6 Pack this morning from Melaleuca, so I will be starting back onto absorbable vitamins and minerals, and antioxidants and what not. We'll see what that does. I suspect it's mainly lack of sleep and exercise and a dash of stress, though, that has got me regressing. I am interested in seeing whether the supplements speed up my recovery relative to progress with just careful lifestyle, superfoods and juice, progress which I think would lead to full recovery without supplements. But then again, I may be getting plenty of a lot of things, but have no way of knowing how good and complete my whole nutrition is. So maybe the supplements will make the difference.

I thought I had bought my last insulin vial. Still may be.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

No Title

Tonight and last night, my sugar was 294. Last night I took about 8 units. Tonight 7. Not sure what's going on but I seem to be regressing. I am having a life changing experience. I have been very busy with very many things, including today being my first day at a new job and I did not feel well. I have been eating quite well and not too much, but not been exercising much.